Wednesday, January 6, 2010

I Want a Bionic Body!

Ok, ok, I've been MIA, I am sorry! Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and all that good stuff to you all, I hope 2010 has kicked off to a good start for everyone.

Now, let's see, what's been happening around here. I think the biggest thing is that I just can't seem to get healthy and that is causing problems in so many other ways. Way back at the beginning of December I came down with a heck of a flu, off work for a week and sick for probably three weeks with a heavy cough. Near the end of my recovery, I had the "back incident" that knocked me out again. More recently I had a another scary health issue. I'll warn you, this might be considered "too much information", but heck, that's reality.

The Saturday after Christmas I woke up with a very sore breast (see, told you). The pain was constant and intense and I proceeded to do a little exam. I didn't find any lumps and just took some ibuprofen. Sunday I still hurt, then Monday came and the pain was almost excruciating. It was Monday that I found a lump, probably three centimeters in diameter and it really seemed to spring up overnight. By Tuesday the pain was intolerable and the fear of the big "C" was firmly planted in my brain so I took Max to a play area with nannies and got myself into the E.R.. By now the breast was red and hot, like someone had taken an iron to it (and that's pretty much how it felt). The docs checked it out, said it was a breast abscess and sent me home with antibiotics and pain killers and orders for a mammogram and blood work. The next few days were awful, the pain was horrid and I felt like I had a flu through my whole body. I stayed home by myself on New Year's Eve as I just couldn't bear the thought of going to a party and grimacing every time my bra rubbed the wrong way. The lump kept getting bigger and the pain kept getting worse until finally this past Sunday I started to feel some relief. I am still on the meds but seem to be on the mend, the lump has shrunk to about a centimeter and the pain has dulled enough so that I think I can actually tolerate the mammogram this week to see what led to the infection.

So I really haven't been healthy since November. This leads to depression (not the only cause, there are other things going on including the general holiday blues and some other personal stuff). I feel "meh". Just "meh". Add to the mix that the weather has been freezing cold and I haven't been to the beach in a month and I am just a big ball of "meh". I have got to dig myself out of this hole, get over the "meh" and get back to life. My new year's resolution has been to get healthy, start eating better (well, eating more often, I've got issues), taking my vitamins, switching from regular Coke to Coke Zero (a little thing to some, a big thing for this addict) and getting some exercise. So far, it's going ok, it's still a battle forcing myself to eat during the day, but I am trying! Once I get this whole boob thing sorted out, I'll start with an exercise routine and hopefully feel like my old energetic self again.

I think what I really want is to be Jaime Sommers, a bionic body would rock my world! Just think of what I could do. Always healthy and if something does go wrong, just twisting a screw or replacing a faulty wire would do the trick and I would be back to flying over the trees in a wink. Where oh where are the Oscar Goldmans of the new century? The Bionic Woman was awesome in the 1970's, just imagine what a bionic body would be like in 2010! Oh to dream.....I guess I'll stick to eating some apples and taking vitamin supplements since I am pretty sure my health insurance doesn't cover the whole bionic thing. Too bad.


KfromMichigan said...

Hope you feel better real soon cause I'm missing my beach pics! Actually I've been checking out Cancun Tom. So I'm getting my fix! Amiga, water is much better than Coke or Coke Zero. Take care of that boob and feel better soon. I've missed you!

Calypso said...

Ouch! That is not something to fool with (I had to write it). Seriously get well fast and have a GREAT 2010.

Jonna said...

Damn! you too? I think it is the cold myself, we aren't capable anymore of handling this freezing weather.

Sorry about all the different sicks, hope you are on the mend and already much better.

You want a bionic body and I want the body I had when I was 20, but... I thought I was bionic then :)

Leslie Harris (de Limon) said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you have been so sick with so many different things. I wish you a speedy recovery, especially with the boob problem. And as a woman with boobs, I ask that you post about what the doctors find out from the mammogram. I'm sure it would be a great help to others with a similar problem.

Happy 2010 to you and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Kathy said...

Oh man. I hear you on the meh! The boob thing sounds like a blocked milk duct. I had that (mastitis) at least once a newborn. If you were still lactating it would be much easier to resolve - nursing the HELL out of that side is the ticket. Even so, it was a good day of a high (104+) fever and a few days of recovery. It sounds VERY familiar - hot/warm to the touch - HORRIFICALLY painful, high fever and then blessed relief.

I'm so sorry about all the other - I look at my girls and SO wish I had their bodies - I can't even hope for a bionic one. :)

Stay safe, sane and reasonably healthy and WARM! This last norte is killing me!

Jennifer said...

Im back for a couple of weeks and wanted to stop in and say hey, I ahve been thinking of you these past 8 months, hoping everything was going ok.

So I log on and see your sick. and having issues. and just feelin gmeh. I am sorry to hear that. If you need to vent or anythng else, you know my email address. I am in the US (which means I am near internet, LOL) for the next 3 weeks or so.

HUGS to you chica.


chicagocher said...

Canucka, Been wondering what happened to you, I missed you! I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of the above. I myself had boob issues and I feel your pain. Things gotta get better...I am hoping & praying for a good report back on your mammo. Please let us know how you are. If it makes you feel any better, we are getting a foot of snow today and then below zero fahrenheit lows this weekend!
Love & Hugs to you! Hang in there!

Kelly said...

Oh my goodness, that sounds TERRIBLE! What a scary thing to go through, expecially in such a vulnerable body part. I'm glad that you haven't received a "big C" diagnosis...once you get this knocked out you'll be good as new, I'm sure!

Keeping you and your family in my thoughts!

Thomas Johnson said...

Sorry to hear about your illness. Hope you are feeling better today, and back in the blogging saddle with renewed strength and creative spirits. Max and hubby look up to ya!!!

CancunCanuck said...

kfromMichigan- I should have said that I have eliminated some Coke drinking in favour of water, it's difficult though! I didn't drink water before but am having a liter a day now. I am a long time Coca Cola addict, this is a big change for me! And man oh man, do I need the beach!

Calypso- No foolin' with the boobs, got it, lol. I hope you have a fantastic year (and decade!)

Jonna- A bionic 20 year old body, oh how lovely that would be! I feel like I am 80 some days. This weather is killing me, I went looking for a space heater it's so cold at night! Hope you are well amiga, hugs to the household.

Leslie- Thanks chica, will post when I have any results. I didn't find very much information on breast abscess in women who are NOT breastfeeding, apparently it's really uncommon so I would like to think that I could help if I find out anything interesting. Happy 2010!

Kathy- Yes, this is very similar to mastitis without the kid gnawing on me. ;-) I'm with ya on this norte, seems to be lasting forever, I have two whole sweaters and I have been doing a lot of laundry to keep warm!

Jennifer- Great to hear from you, hello hello. Will go check out your blog for updates, have been missing you too! Take care, hugs back atcha.

Chicagocher- Thanks for your kind words, will post when I know more. Things gotta get better, can't get much worse (she says as she knocks on wood). Sorry about the snow, ouch, I know most of my northern friends are suffering too! Hugs to you. :)

Kelly- It really was scary and I have honestly not experienced this kind of intense long term pain for a while. I am such a baby about it too, lol, poor Hubby. Hope you are well!

Thomas- Thanks, I am starting to feel better. I must feel better, as you say, Hubby and Max deserve more than a whiny old lady on the couch, haha. Take care!

Cathy W said...

I love reading your replorts and I was so sad to hear about the breast problem. I am the Supervisor of a large mammo, breast ultrasound and biopsy clinic. I have seen this type of thing happen before and moost commonly it turns out to be an inflamed cyst or an infection but it is definitely something to get checked out. Please let me know how you are doing and if there is any way I can help please let me know. Thanks also for the updates on the beach restoration. We are coming to the Bay View Grand on February 6-20 and we have been wondering about the beach. Your information was great.

Thanks again for the news and I hope all goes well for you.

Denise said...

You will be in my prayers. I'm sure everything will be fine. I have had an abscess before and it's no picnic. It was several years ago and everythign has been fine. It might be just an ingrown hair. You kno how pesky those hairs can be.

Speaking of the Bionic Woman, I loved her and the $6,000,000 man. Had the lunchbox and the dolls.

minshap said...

that 'meh' or 'gmeh' feeling must be going around... I've had it since I got back from end-of-year traveling. Your blog made me feel better, (misery loves company). However, I gotta tell you, you are one BRAVE, FULL-OF-GRIT, MORE-THAN-BIONIC woman, Canucka. You're like the Jaime Sommers of 2010! Speaking of fiction characters, that's how I deal with the meh feelings... reading and watching movies... don't know if it helps you any, but I can totally recommend the Time Traveler's Wife, which I'm into now (the book; but the movie's out too).

Unknown said...

So excited to see your post today...hope you are feeling better soon. You made my day when you said the work is behind the Solaris resorts. I'll be there on Thursday so I'm hoping it will be close to finished when I get there.

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